It has been almost a month since I have written anything. It has been a busy and thought-driven month. Have you ever had an experience where you address a problem by first researching what needs to be done, fill yourself with hope that your research will provide the answers you want, and then realize you might just be chasing rainbows that you can't find the end of (don't ever end your sentences in a preposition)? It seems like I have done a lot of that lately. I have hoped against hope that some issues I have had to deal with would end up with a concrete, definitive answer of how to address the problem. All I learned is what I have learned before - there are some things that are just not in my control. One would think by now that I would have known that - I have certainly had ample events that have driven that point home. Still, when one hopes so much that things can have a different outcome, but that it isn't in your control to do anything about that outcome, it is kind of like a punch in the stomach. The next step then becomes obvious. One sometimes needs to accept things they just wish weren't so. I need to move forward with that thought, understanding that while I can still hope, I no longer have any need to worry myself with things I can't control.
Yes this post has been enigmatic. It is really more for a catharsis than anything else. In the end it really is, "que sera, sera,whatever will be, will be, the future's not ours to see, que sera, sera".
Peace out.
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